things I'm afraid to tell you.

Happy Monday from Punta Cana! {cv} and I are in the Dominican Republic for a family wedding tomorrow. It's been a dream since we arrived on Saturday--and we've been soaking up as much Vitamin D as possible, but safely of course. Our flight doesn't leave until 2:45 on Wednesday, so expect plenty of tropical instagrams until then ;)

I have a different kind of post for you today. Meg {from the fabulous MIMI+MEG} invited me to join her in sharing a few "things I'm afraid to tell you." Inspired by Jess {and then Ez}, Meg thought it would be good to keep this movement rolling. I agree! Without further ado, here are six truths from yours truly...


-I may create fun outfits for Friday's Fancies, but my normal post-work attire consists of running shorts and t-shirts from my high school cross country days. On the weekends, I step up my game a bit. I would never be able to do any consistent "outfit of the day" posts because I'd frankly scare you.

-Though I simply cannot wait to build our house next year, I am beyond frightened it won't live up to other people's "expectations." I want to have perfectly styled bookshelves and coffee tables, but the reality is that it won't happen overnight...and I have to be ok with that. Rome wasn't built in a day, right?

-I spend my days in a sales job, though I dream of one day being able to work for myself. My time management skills have been exercised quite a bit lately, but I love it. I wish I had more time to comment on and discover new blogs, I simply don't have the time I once did. I hope my readers forgive me for that. 

-I'm not ready for kids just yet. Sure, we've been married two years and been together six and a half years, but there are too many things I want to do with {cv} before we do...namely our Europe trip this summer and that house next spring ;) 

-Speaking of kids, I'm terrified of doing something to "mess them up." I could do about ten full posts on that, so I'll spare you. Suffice it to say, my parents did a phenomenal job raising me and I'm worried I won't be able to parent as well as them.

-I sometimes worry I have "passed my prime". I know, I'm only 26 years {and 351 days} old, but I look at pictures from my early 20s and have a minor freak-out. The wrinkles I've earned through laughing are fine, it's that I just don't feel young anymore. The honest truth is that I'm not--and I haven't had an easy time accepting that fact.


Read more "things I'm afraid to tell you" posts here: Cassie: Coco + Kelley / Christine: Court & Hudson / Caitlin: Sacramento Street / Roxy: My Cup of Te / Crystal: Blog / Meg:MIMI+MEG / Ashlina: The Decorista / Katie: Modern Eve / Erin: Apartment 34 / Erica: Design Blahg / Victoria: Vmac & Cheese / Christine: Miles to Style / Franki: Life in a Venti Cup  / Sue: The Zhush / Erika: Radiant Republic / Gabrielle: Savvy Home / Monika: The Doctor's Closet / Naomi: Design Manifest /Tobe: Because It's Awesome / Becca: {extra}ordinary wonders / Lynzy: Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha: Hitha On The Go / Sarah: Note To Self / Liz: So Much To Smile About / Sarah: Blogstar / Alissa: The Goods Design / Jessie: Style & Pepper / Erika: Small Shop Studio  / AV: Long Distance Loving / Maggie: Maggie Rose Blog / Nicole: The City Girl In Me / Priscilla: The Best Laid Plans / Jen: Concrete Jungle DC / Janelle: Food Fashion Fitness / Natalie: East Coast Chic

This post was wildly therapeutic, I must say. I hope I didn't run you away with these six truths! Learning to balance my "blog life" and my "real life"is just that: a learning process. I find so much inspiration in the blogosphere, but it doesn't mean I have to use all of it. I can {and will!} go my own way. Many thanks to Meg, Ez, and Jess for inspiring this movement of honesty!


P.S. If you want updates from the Caribbean, don't forget to follow me on instagram or twitter ;)

29 comments:

  1. I love this! I love you for being brave. Knowing you personally means I know a lot of these things already and I know how much courage it took to put it on your blog. XOX

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  2. love love this post! so honest and brave. you WILL be the best. momma. ever. no doubt about that. and your house?! already know it's going to be gorgeous! xoxo jillian:: cornflake dreams

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  3. sometimes i watch those nanny shows to make sure i know what NOT to do one day when kiddies are in the picture! and i bet you look super cute in your running shirts! :)

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  4. I hope you have a fab time in the DR! I loved it when I was there in October!

    Glad you shared your fears--I think we are all with you on most, or all, of them! But, no worries, especially on the being old part! :)

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  5. You ladies are such an inspiration and I think these 6 things make me adore you even more! Enjoy the rest of your trip! xo

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  6. What a near post, {av}. First off - I hope you enjoy your time in Punta Cana, I'm very jealous. Secondly - on your fears... your house is going to be YOUR (and {cv}) home... not anyone else's... don't let that scare you - it doesn't matter if it lives up to any one's expectations but your own, which I'm sure it will :) You're right - you're still young and kids can wait. My parents had me after 3 years of marriage and my mom still wishes they had waited maybe one more year to have made some more money and travel a bit! Don't let age get you down... you're young, active, vibrant, and you have plenty of time to worry about kids in a few years ;) As much as we want to think everyone still has kids in their early twenties... it's not true anymore... I think you'll be okay ;) Okay enough sappiness... Have a lovely time at the wedding. xo

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  7. SO jealous of your time right now can't wait to see pics! and i've started getting some wrinkles too and I like to call them wisdom lines haha!

    xoxo
    eileen

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  8. I'm in the same boat with you about having kids. I'm totally not ready. There are so many things I want to do before starting a family.

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  9. This was such a great idea, and I must say if I were to write a post like this, our six things would collide.

    How do I find balance? Well CURRENTLY, my mother is sitting behind me telling me we need to get our day started. I would be perfectly fine sitting on the couch, sipping coffee for the next few hours, so I could invest more in others' blogs. But... seeing as that I just moved back in with my parents (yesterday), I guess I need to abide by her suggestions to start unpacking my things.

    Maybe we can both try to find a better balance between blogging and our personal lives! :)

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  10. I relate to ALL of this..except the house part :D
    But I agree with you on the job, babies, fashion during the week (I'm not as fashionable as I seem to be), and feeling old looking.

    I had a minor break down a few weeks back when I realized how old I was and that I had found two gray hairs. It's seriously weird.

    Hopefully one day soon we can be our own bosses!

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  11. I'm loving this series! Don't worry 26 is not old at all but I definitely felt like that in my mid-late 20s but now that I'm 30 I realize how many people have accomplished so much after 30, 40 or 50! So jealous of your vacation!

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  12. I can relate to all of this! I am 27 years old and getting married in October (speaking of, Sarah said that you may be helping organize and everything?!?) Yay! I sometimes think that I need to get on the baby wagon and on with life (which I recently figured out - is not the case). I, too, often look into others' homes and interiors and think to myself- how the heck did they afford all of that and why can't mine look the same? The truth is, is that it will be your home and that is what will make it special! :)

    xx Lynzy

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  13. ugh, working in sales takes soooo much of my time. I know how hard it can be.

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  14. I know what you mean about feeling past your prime. I turned 30 this year and I definitely don't feel "young" anymore. :(

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  15. Being a mom is scary & hard, but it is also insanely rewarding & fun. You will be great at it, whenever that time comes. :)

    Enjoy your vacation!

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  16. Great post - thanks for your sharing :)

    Hope you are having an amazing time in Punta Cana - loving your Instagrams!

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  17. So I have to say, your six things are some of the most heartfelt that I've seen in those that I've come across. We've been married 3 years and the pressure is mounting to have kids and I'm not sure we're quite ready? Also, I totally feel past my prime at 30, I just get tired so much easier than back in the day.

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  18. I love this post. Thanks so much for sharing! You are so brave and I can completely relate to so many things you're feeling.

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  19. Great post. I love seeing the real side of my favorite bloggers, stuff that isn't quite as spunky & upbeat. And while you're not ready for kids? I'm 27 & not even close to ready for marriage... I feel like a total freak!

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  20. These are so great to read! And I'm sure your house will be amazing. :)

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  21. I don't know if there is ever a good time to have kids!
    good luck with your planning!
    I am your newest follower..pls follow bcd if you can.

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  22. Alison, you have such youthful vigor and passion that makes everyone want to strive to be better! Never forget that! We all have our fears, but I can bet if you were raised in an amazing way, you'll parent in an amazing way, whenever that is! Good luck with your house plans, so exciting!

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  23. Thanks for opening up Alison! You are always an inspiration xo

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  24. the part about feeling 'past your prime' really resonated with me. i often think about college, who i was in college, what i was doing in college, & it almost makes me cry. i joke with my friends all the time about not knowing how to be an adult, & that college feels like the only thing i'm 'good at.' of course, i know that none of this is true, that there's so much more to life, so much more ahead of me. but that 'old' feeling nags, & i don't like it. here's to looking at things from a different perspective - to feeling like there's still so much much to experience & discover!

    - l

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  25. I am right with you on the 26 years old comment -- I am too and still feel like I'm so...old! We're have a lot of the same things going on - I did long distance with my boyfriend, then hauled across the country for him, got married almost 2 years ago, and are building a house (done in less than a month!!). Meanwhile, most of my old college friends are just starting to get engaged, or graduate from law or graduate school, etc etc. It's the constant comparison that makes me feel so much older.

    I just have to keep reminding myself that it simply means I'm ahead of the game, right??!? ;)

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  26. aww what a lovely post :) I like how open you are! And I laughed at the sales job comment. I work in sales too & I swear sometimes I feel I never have any free time to blog which makes me sad & makes me boyfriend think I'm silly that that even bothers me hahaha

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  28. I know this is an old post, but I just had to comment (I just found you, after all). When I was 25 I kind of went into shock over my age. Not that I thought I was old, but I looked back at my life, and I wan't where I thought I should be. So, I made a few changes. Fast forward to 40. Yes, 40. I had had a lot of good years in between and actually felt younger than I did at 25, but here I was "taking stock" again. This time I made some major changes, and I am so happy I did. Now, at 50something I still feel like I'm just a kid (aka young adult). So, don't dispair - that "old" feeling will come and go - just keep bopping along...........
    Elaine
    ps my new blog will start sometime this week! I can't wait - its My Vintage Vibe.com - please visit me!

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Many thanks for visiting {long distance loving}! I'd love to hear what you think :) xoxo {av}